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So, I wake up this morning and find myself feeling guilty... oops what did I do???
Guilt is one of those dissonant energies that are widely promoted by the popular media, religion and cultural and social programs. BIIIG TIME. Why? because it lowers our vibration and sucks us into the victim/aggressor cycle.
My first thought was, "what did I do that's so bad to wake me up with buckets of guilt?" I spent several hours allowing the feeling of guilt to exist, express, grow... and nothing. I had no idea why it was there, or where it came from. I did see that it had overtones of victim/aggressor energy, and fear.
When I was a young kid, at some point I decided I wanted to experience life as a regular human being experiences it. This was mainly because I had no grasp of why people behaved in the way they behaved, or held on to dissonant energies way past the time they were triggered. The decision was immediately carried out, and I was able to experience many strong, human emotions, conflicts, decisions, I suffered (held on to pain past the moment of its usefulness), and so on. But it was artificial, and even at the darkest pits of despair, I was observing, learning, knowing it was artificial.
One of the first acts I did as a kid, when I was able to "experience" being human, was to remove a personal guilt by removing the memory of what I had done/experienced from my mind. This cascaded into forgetfulness, the vail fell across my eyes. Before that, I had complete recall of every single moment in my life. I could quote from a random page of a book I had read several years earlier. After that, I couldn't remember what I had for breakfast.
Some decades later, the usefulness of "living like a human being" died off, and I stepped into my natural self once more, but with several programs still in place from the years of "being human". This means that often I don't know what a particular dissonance is about, where it comes from, or what triggered it, but have a sense of what it might be by it's "description".